this is a sad markdown
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I've got to blow my nose.. brb
had to start this before i left so that I would have to finish it when I returned
not everybody names their pipes
just sayin
im about to remove my glasses and streamline some random shit to you.
well.. we all know by now that im streamlining random shit to me..
but im not just me
lets see here.. i had to start off with somethin informal to set the stage
maybe i should start with simple small wards as to not arouse m y anger at typos.. or maybe i should type the typos and keep going like i don't know what my fingers are pressing
i can calculate exacgtly what button im pressing and in what order nakdkdkd and the motion is pretty fast but it seems like a second nature to me
its easier than talking but also its harder to convey
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im dissapointed with myself thats the real issue here.. i am practicing but im not supposed to bbe practicing rght now.. i now know that i need to slow down
i need to take a step back and look at the options before thwoonig them out
i need to dig though the garbage ya know??
not even that.. i feel like i have to be more honest
but people don't want my honesty/. ive told many people this.. well just one person a lot.. people dont people peope thats a good word to tyupe people people pelple it just rolls off the fingers.. i remember when i ddn't want to learn typing in high school i thought it was soo dumb that they put the letters like this and wanted me to learn where to rest my fingers in order to know where everything else was.. they forced me into becomeiing becoming very efficiant with this shit..
i tell my friend that people don'w want to hear honesty.. they are not looking for YOUR truth.. they want small talk and les.. they want you to make them feel comfotable.. hello pc world..
I am beginning a path of truth b
a path of righteousn ess i sohuld say but that word is difficult and also means too much.. i dont' believe in truth persay.. but also that is the path im on. ya know
/ like the path of change.. change is the only real definable truth.. nothing stays the same.. unless you count change.. change stays the same. therefore change is true.. gravity. faulse in some cntext or another. time faulse in some context or another love false in some context or another .. spelling horrible n all contests and the others.. false is spelled like that but i spell it faulse all the tume.. me
my eyes have been closed this whole time but i know when i spell false faulse uy
so my friend.. I tells em people don't want to hear your truthes .. the truth is abrasive.. nonot everyonw is you and not everyone will understand you.
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I opened my eyes earlier.. after the paragraph of peoples becaue I had to make sure I was still typing on this screen.. last time I typed for an hour and my mouse was hovering over a pop up or some stupid shit.
so I need to take my own advice.. maybe people only need to see this part of the ice burg ya know ? mabybe its a good thing that they don't know how intelligent my insanity is.. but like my own friends and family dont understand my genious or if they do they dismiss it because it contraducts their lifestyle.. I contradict everything and anything because that is what alchemy is abot.. manipulation i.. when a bug like a troach raoch tro
a roach when it gets scared what does it do?
no better.. when a roach gets introduced to something new.. what does it do? \
It jumps towards whatever danger you show it it says FUCK YOU IM A TOACH
roaches have chassed me before and they are just lesser mees and yes i mean lesser fuck you roaches
please dont attack me in bed roaches..
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soo.. anytime anything new is introduced into my perception I challenge it..
challenge is a weird word.. I test it..
I test things by attempting to manipulate them
sayy sayyyyyy sayyyyyy thinking of an example.. thinking of somehting that isn't me stomping at roaches.. stamping at roaches..
pause.. takes.. thinking.. break.. uhh... . I only manipulate my friends who I love most.. honestly.. well active manipulation goes towards my loved ones.. which is normal for people but also not normal as far as seclusion of manipulation
most people go about their day manipulating anything they can willy nilly ya know? pushing buttons here and there like they don't care
I manipulate things byu by being sstill.. I don't know if you can understand.. think yoga AWAKE thie story of that indian dude that i can't remember the name of yeagodondi higodandi
what was i talking about?
manipulations! standing still.. his master meditated himself to death.. but thats not my point.. meditation makes you in control
imagine a bar full of food.. how do you manipulate it?
first think of what a normal person would do. eat not eat throw something destroy
iwhat did you do in the situation?
I picked think about and consume the situation itself.
some people see meditation as shutting out everything around you, but my meditations are readings of my surroundings i consume the sounds and vibes
you can hear way better than you think outside of all the goddamned machine buzz..
sirens vover the city night in a fog of static..
so yeah the most powerful for of manipulation is to ignore physically and consume spiritually or just mentally
Someone walks up to you with a knife.. open arms and say i understand. ya know?? or blank stare like you have never seen a knife.
play dumb is the game
what I do personally is play dumb.. to a lot of things because i am not established as a magician, but i am known to be a macician
so what I have in affect caused for myself is a bubbble of time in which
things I say can be taken wrong but will be shrugged off. the more I polorizze myself the less I can say without suspiccion or energy being directed towards me
imediate energy I hshould say.. I usurp a lot these days but little to no direct imediate energy
I mentioned usurping a while room though meditation, but thats different from someone being upset with you and directing hostility or fear. that us more maluable e energy.. its its more redily manipulated..
the life of a magician starts and cannot stop less though death which is when the quest for knowlegde stops and you become stuck in a relization.. if a magician gets stuck in a relization they usually just become "ccreazy" crazy cc crazy [ep[;e crazy I feel like i only speeled that right once
so ive already begun my magicican life by professing to more than a few people that i knew what magic was and was into it.. but ta
at this pointin my life i am immortal.. I will not leave my phisical body for the spiritual for good untill after my next birthday.. who knows how many mortal years I'll live but I will fear .. well not fea more anticipate death
so yeah I want the anticipation of death and surprise driving my light. I'm too comfortable to have a heavy stream of maluabnle energy being directed towards me. I wouldn't make clear decisions becaiue I don't value my immortal life yet.. I have to make a disconnevt at the end of this year.. I will seperate my feelings for my imortal soul from my feelings of my mortal body.. Right now i feel like BYRON will live forever.. but my soul is talking to me like bitch im chaos black negus manipulator underrated underachiever five star gold landing softly on thorns confined .. in poskemop ..
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I will seperate my feelings of immortality and use my mortality to my advantage.. its already working its magic.. this year i plan on getting my web series done, a nother mixtape and possibly another album.. but I am working as if my death will come at the end of this suear, when the end of the year comes I will plan for only the next day and my future manipulation
mortality brings me to hasten decisions and forces me onto the path that ive bbeen strolling down. I don't think many of the people that associate with me now will like who i become.. \\im sleepy. you are god.. you are god.. you are god \\breackfast in head.
now to scroll though this and marvel at all the red marks..