Elapsed Fear

Markdown i've abused you for too long..

be yourself

im a part time magician..   i live in the basement of the highway to hell 

the highway to hell  is the tunnel that leads into hell..   

each day i go to work and each day i go to play but the play seems to happen more and more each day 

 

this is dumb   i wanted to come type here because i felt like the time that i havent been typing is some type of secret crime that im doing  because im not documenting time and it feels weird to think that maybe i couldn't come here and type something compelling or smart 

 

or maybe i coudn't realize anymore when i was supposed to change subject and when i was supposed to expound upon certain subjects like this problem in itself.. 

 

i seem to not beafije af ebaf ae wee    maybe i can fource the gueniune type to gome out htough typos 

the fear of not having it anymore 

 

 

im listening to a lecture at the moment..  i should probobaly turh that down fsdaoj dipijwqojd apjsdalkj lja diopa djad;j;f ajdadjs jsadip adsiop jio apijiodapiji opajsdio a iopfjaiow 

eat it eat it eat it ieei

 

flie thats not a word

 

typed it on purpose tho

 

in the air in the air  in the air 

under normal circomstances \\\

i wanted that to be spelled right!!!!

 

this is getting ridiculous 

but maybe that's the decline that i am needing..  i need more dirty drty writnig
im able to close my eyes

the closeness that comes with mistakes

 

never trust me 

 

i made a song that says that in the title and it's pretty great 

 

maybe i should turn the video off..    i could do some cool shit maybe?

 

now i feel like the audience doesn't deserve anything cool after reaching levels of attainment the hero is a bitch about it .  holding out powers behind closed doors and secret handshakes ..

 

smh

smh

smh

snoor snoor this is a bore 

this is a pig

and this is a snort 

 

i don't want to go to work 

that's whats on my mind..   i don't want this job anymore..   work suckssss  people are uuugghhhhh   

soo human.. 

 

i hide in failure lurking in shadow 

you learned   

i dik  idk what i do that for 

tried to type out lyrics to my album..  not now false alarm 

the good stuff 

the best ones

 


I just sneezed hard as fuck 

expelling the negative feelings holding me down 

trying to make me feel so small and human  i am not so small and so human say you robot overloard  you see me and comend my battles oh overloard 

look upon me with favor you do so caringly send your knights in their armer to guide me though the sky in white 

 

my mother fucking heart is attacking me with goodness  that's what the real underlining problem is 

I don't feel evil enough for enlightenment

I need to stop doing the god jokes and go back to human jokes and become darker

i must renter the negreto stage..  nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigga nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigga nigger..  

here it goes..   it's working nigger nigger nigger niggger  nigga  nigger nigger nigger

 

i feel the power going back into the fingertips

 nigga nigga nigga nigger nigger niggre nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger 

help me o' spirit of all dead niggers   help me become you and cary on your legacy of nigger 

 

doom don doom 

we open up at 5 in the morning on a train going to indiana 

what's this you find that your eyes won't open correctly but someone is already speaking to you 

you feel the train steadily moving down the tracks as your hand reaches for your eyes 

"You can't sleep here!"

your hand stops short of your chest restricted by the wrist.  small amounts of light stream into your half open lids 

"hey what are you doing?!? No Sleeping"

you rock your body flailing limbs to find out that just one arm is hindered

a cough six seats back 

person across the isle clears throat 

you paw at your eyes to open them with your free hand then paw at your wrist to free the other hand 

both hands paw at the eyes to get the full picture 

 

the left and the right hand path ..  

 

niggas is locked up in jail..  but niggers are all over the planet 

 

this is a body test of strength and poop capabilities..  how fast can you find chilies and can you get it to go?    im kinda hungry and want to eat these chips before work..   im so so so not ready for work   

chips and dips I have to become less good in my own eyes..   darker nigger darker 

darker to me

what darker means to me

darker

what it means to me

nigger

nigger nigger nigger nigga

nigger 

 

what darker means to me... 

 

 

a type of freedom gained from knowledge ..   direction that comes with knowing and the intuition that comes with doing magic exercises 

 

I am not psychic because I say   i am not psychic but does this stop someone from learning exactly what a psychic is? and imagining how the power is used and how it feels to manipulate in that manor

magic exercises is the life of niggers under the system of white supremacy..  all day we got mind control being blasted at us..   to stay magic in this society is a magic exercise

 

new orleans should be ashamed that they let me slip away..   we could have been so good together..    nigger and magic city..  

im still hella destructive and i feel bad for deconstructing things   soo  when i become more nigger I overcome feeling bad for destruction  it's simply nigger isnt it nigger

nigger nigger nigger nigga nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigga nigger

 

what blackening means to me..