mark down.. we've been here so many times
i gotta figure out how to spell unimportant
i spell it unimportaint
this being said
Don't know what to say
what to say to make tshshtshtsts
what to say what ty soso
i hope you read this
i hope you don't
i wish to be seen
i know i won't
what i am doing to myself is what i choose to do to myself and what i do to myself serves change. transmutation is alive and well and this pain in my chest is proof of life and death in none goddamned breath. i don't know what im not doing right yet.. what i am doing wrong is yet to be corrected..
this is only true
have you ever fallen in love with a hologram?
right foot left foot i want to be molded
order my chaos in your vision and yours alone
i offer you the keys to the castle
kill me and in so kill your faith in the world.
destroy me as you destroy reason
i am the law that must break
beat me into submission with the principals of my words..
dance in paradoxes with me
in the way of causality i know what i am doing.. iv'e spent so much time in the low vibration that i feel i belong here.. Iron Fist makes fun of me.. supposed to be in heaven and am in new york chasing ninja chicks..
i refuse to let iron fist dictate how my transmutation is going.. but i will listen to it's warnings..
my life goes on pause until it involves you..
I'm starting to realize the potential of life in your conversation
I'm lost for hours after you leave
I live a life of secrets
I don't yet know how not to..
The more i force myself into this realm the more dangerous this realm gets.. i don't need to reveal myself as much as i need to trust in my revelations..
trust that you can see of me what you need to see in me. trust that your decisions are not manipulations from my causality.
I live a life of secrets and my biggest problem is letting you out of my web of causality.. my biggest problem is that i have yet to set you free of me.
the predator falls in love with the prey
Do me a solid and don't do me that solid
I'm addicted to self control
I'm addicted to causality
control and causality and control and causality
If i slow time down enough.. maybe you'll notice the world dancing around us. and if i illuminate the world enough.. maybe you'll notice that it's just our reflection..
so yea havent done a blog in forever for fear of it sounding like this an shit.. blahhhh
who am i even anymore?
this was too long of a gap between blogs and i don't want the first blog to be this sappy shit
think of it as a love song to the version of myself that you are
second person is a powerful writing style
does it feel less personal yet?
really i just want to type some shit that i can put out in the front page so that people won't want to read this one.. but i also want to type that and then finish the blog strong..
It's been too long blog.. I'm sorry i was scared to speak about myself openly.. sometimes i need the secrecy
even though i was all over twitter..
I don't have many friends that I keep up with.. I love you